2004-02-18 - 7:33 p.m.
i have this habit of taking baths( a habit of probably 3 weeks) when i am a little frustrated. so the bath is running. i scrubbed the tub this weekend and the sides kinda sparkle.
i just got home from work, i was on call tonight.
walking home, today with this girl. we had lunch and the conversation was light, on fourth year and future and being excited. and i asked her why she ran so much? why does she run marathons and and triathalons and train so much. i like to get to the gritz of motivation. and she said i like to feel alive. she said, sri there is so much you dont know about me. and i thought yeah right.
and she went further and said it was because she was raped and she runs as a testimony of survival and being alive. i was floored. she described it in some detail and the medical response. all which was sick and sicker.
she had to give me a hug because my stomach sank so fast. and i am usually so good at the comfort. i feel like my life has been one big uchechi poetry event. everybody overcoming big freaking hurdles that i cant fathom and singing their survival.
