2003-09-11 - 8:56 a.m.
i am at work bright and early. it is beginning to be autumn in New York. The leaves are shedding and leaving the branches naked. The air is getting a little colder and the showers i take have been getting warmer every morning. I am a little less drenched when I run in central park now. I am in the best shape i have been in a while. And that is still piss poor condition. I have been running around the resovoir- about 2 miles. the most beautiful run you can imagine. i never get bored of it. and there are always people running and biking and walking their dogs or strolling with their kids. its a pretty democratic space in this firey city. i have been reading GO tell it on the mountain by baldwin(not quite giovannis room but still good) he describes the landscape of New York 40 yrs ago and the detail mirrors everything i see now. the park, the people, midtown and harlem. the loneliness of the city and the rumble. the psych rotation is hard to pin down. fascinating and casual but also it leaves the feeling that the road to getting better is pretty damn far along for most of these folks. 87 billion for Iraq and you have to be piss poor for this country to cover your meds or to find a decent place to live and linger safe outside of the hospital. i think they should set up a garden or a craft house that could put many of these schizophrenics into doing things and living and feeling some sorta contentment. instead of shifting them to institutions or putting them on the backs of overstretched family memebers or hustling them into temporary shelters. okay, i gotta get to rounds. s
